laurawhiterivers

Today was my first true success since the accident.
You have no idea what it’s like trying to study, to focus and all I see is you on the racetrack, you on the hospital table.
If you were here you would have sent me a text telling me I could do it, that I could pass the tests.
If you were here you also would have yelled at me for parking the truck on the septic tank and crushing it. It was not exactly near where you said it was….so I’m not completely to blame.

But Frank and Cindy and Chris are bailing me out there. Mitch has made sure we are warm. Debbie, Tonya, Nadine, Julianne and your mother help with the girls when I’m in a pinch. Elanor took them christmas shopping. Glen took me shooting. I always know I have Corkey, Kevin, Tommy and Jason for one thing or another.  You left a mess, but you left me with some very good friends to help me along the way.

Today was a victory, because I pushed through the images that haunt my mind every day. It took exhaustive effort. I need to get through these ghosts and own my mind again.  Today, I will celebrate the little victories.